hands down and alhamdulillah

the typical type of me, being siti nurhafiza is, always and always feeling down. rasa down yang kadang-kadang entah datang dari mana. tapi at the same time, i will constantly reminding myself that i have so many reasons to say alhamdulillah, to praise Him for all the countless nikmats i have.

why must i say alhamdulillah?

1. i have enough foods and clothes and tudungs

2. i have my parents - still alive, healthy, happy, and blessed with Allah's deen

3. i can hear, see, speak, laugh, eat, walk, touch, smell, read

4. i live in a peaceful country. *serious*

5. im going to graduate next year - june 2013

6. universiti islam antarabangsa! - a dream come true - dah hampir 6 tahun berada di sini

7. sponsored study by govt of malaysia -

8. jadi tutor - countless alhamdulillah for the perseverance of 'ilm granted by Him

9. lailatul qadr - ramadhan hari tu. ALHAMDULILLAH

10. hidayah.

the last one is very much important for me. alhamdulillah. ramadhan hari tu sempat membuka hati ni untuk lebih mencintai ALLAH. seriously, cintakan Allah. rasa cinta yang betul-betul deep dalam hati. sampai tengah solat pun boleh teresak-esak. cinta yang tiada tara.

ramadhan tahun ni memang betul-betul rasa lain sangat. first time tak miss terawikh! selama ni puasa kat uia, mahallah nun jauh di atas bukit memang malas menguasai diri la nak turun masjid. eh, tak tak. sebenarnya kat setiap mahallah ada je solat terawikh at multi purpose hall. hm. tapi tau je lah kan - student - study. eh?

tapi ramadhan kali ni, memang berbeza. walaupun penat yang amat. yela balik kerja dah pukul 5 ptg, sampai rumah terus solat and masak for iftar, lepas iftar dengan kurma and air sikit, terus siap-siap pergi terawikh. but Alhamdulillah again, penat berbayar sebab..

entah, ada something yang sangat unexpectable sebenarnya berlaku dalam hidup ni. something yang tak tahu nak describe macam mana. entah entah entahh  :/

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